I don't even know anymore if I'm even really alive. I don't know the right words to use as usual... We are getting closer to the one year anniversary and I don't want to think about it. It still makes me cry at night, I should move on but I know I never will be able to do so. This is a constant pain... I don't know what to do and I'm not asking for your help. This is just me venting in some sort of way. I'm gonna go through the motions, like I always do. But there is so much I don't care about anymore. I just want to go to bed and stay in there forever. Leave me here with my music and don't t… Read more

Long time no see.. If you haven't been following, or should I say talking to me, it's been a rough year. Last year around this time, it was my biggest downfall and what started the most difficult time of my entire life. It went even further down until I felt like my whole body got thrown in the gutter, or even worse than that. I've not only lost someone but a part of myself. I've not yet recovered and probably will never. I'm still going thru the motions, acting as if I'm doing good for the people around me. But I'm not, inside my heart, inside my brain...it's a constant storm. I'm on a rolle… Read more

The past few weeks have been really weird and I haven't been able to put everything into actual words. So this is me, right here right now, actually trying some stuff out. It's been all ups and downs lately. On one hand, I've got some terrible health problems going on in my closest family. I've always been very positive and hopeful, especially with how confident the docs are. But it has be getting slowly and slowly on my nerves, since I tend to stress myself and not open my mouth...it just bubbles up inside of me. Thankfully things have been going better this past weekend or so...knock… Read more

Been feeling weird these days. I'm not feeling like myself. I've been questioning my own existence, my life choices. I am in a weird place, as if I was perfectly lost. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to change some things around, but all I get is bad vibes. As any major Star Wars character would say: "I've got a bad feeling about this". On a positive side, today I'm feeling better. Which doesn't mean I'm great but at least I can pretend again that everything's good. I'll put on my mask again, I'll wear my comfy little shell with it. And just manage to go on as I always do. I wanna thank… Read more

It's my favorite season? I have no idea, maybe I like Autumn more. Both are good, whatever, who cares besides me. Blah blah blah... I don't really know what to say. When I'm feeling down I go back to some of my roots, either Grunge or Goth. But since it's Winter, Goth is absolutely perfect. So here's some of my favorite bands and songs in the somewhat Gothic genre. This means not everything in there is full on Goth but shut up... Let's go for a nice 30 songs and different bands (different-ish but you'll see why). 01 Sis,ters of Mercy – Colours https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkiBJNaJA… Read more

Fuck this! I've been working on myself. I've been feeling better. Things are fucked, scars never heal. This is me trying to make poetry...I guess... I'm feeling low again. And things never turn the way I want them to. All I get is anxiety and a broken heart. I'm just a jealous bitch, even though I shouldn't be. I need some rest, some sleep and some love. Bye for now, see ya laterz bitches!… Read more

Hell yeah I'm back bitches ! What's been going on my favorite ghouls ? It's a been a while...oh wait no it hasn't...the fuck is going on with me. This website is slowly falling down and angrying users, while I'm here not caring and talking 'bout music. Eh I'm not even gonna bother talking for once. Enjoy. As Elvira would say: "Unpleasant dreams!" 1 Sisters Of Mercy – Marian https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d8m1nRzsOJM 2 The Mission – Tower Of Strength https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZ6nmpmQKZs 3 The Cure – A Forest https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBoJGOovQH8 4 David Bowie – Th… Read more

I haven't done one of these in such a long long time. Last was 6 months ago ?! What the fuck ?! It's not like I stopped thinking about doing these, just like...I dunno, don't ask me why, shaaaaaddaaaaap ! As per usual, let the music do the talking. 1 Nigtwish – The Poet And The Pendulum Let's start by my newest obsession, I don't know why I slept for so long on this band. It's fuckin' amazing ! BTW Floor Jansen is a Goddamn Amazon Goddess !! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N4Vfy5yCy-c 2 Ghost – Hunter's Moon The newest Papa Emeritus keeps doing what he does best. h… Read more

Yeah technically it's not already May for everybody right now when I'm posting this. It is on my side of the world, so shut up! Gonna for once put only recent stuff. As per usual, so let the music do the talking, shall we? 01 Reverend Peyton's Big Damn Band – Dirty Huslin' Really enjoy their “homemade Blues” sound. Simple and very enjoyable. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0YXJRx2rXk 02 Lana Del Rey – White Dress She has been constantly amazing, each album since the beginning. I absolutely love her whole style and sound. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJuV8PDwvC8 03 B… Read more

This may or may not have started as a Goth music playlist. Mostly stuff I used to listen non-stop in my teenage years. I'd say I was was somewhat of a Goth-lite, I don't know if there's a word for it, I could almost like Post Punk vibe? New Wave-ish? I dunno... Just to sum it up, I had short black hair, barely any makeup, black clothes, rangers type boots, sometimes a necklace or something. But yeah, something a bit too discreet to be considered Goth by most people. Basically just picture the early years of Siouxsie Sioux. Anyway, in the end, this isn't a Goth music playlist. It has some stuff… Read more

One is enough...or is it? Yeah it isn't enough for me at least. 50 bands and artists just don't represent enough of my taste in music. So here's another 50, adding up to a hundred of my favorites of favorites of all time. Have fun, crank up you sound to 11 and let's jam together! 01 Niagara – Pendant Que Les Champs Brûlent As previously said in the other list, I don't listen to much French music (even if I'm Fronch). But there are a few ones that I just could listen for hour...and in that case...could just stare at the singer... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTVvmCAEg3A 02 Church Of The… Read more

Here's to 2021! I said I was going to make a new music playlist at the start of the new year and here we are. Here's the theme for this, as you have read the title, it's going to be about my all time favorite artists in music history. So sit tight and get your ears ready, I'll give you bunch of my favs in no particular order. As for the songs I picked? Well...nothing special, just stuff I really like but not always my favorite ones. 1 Nine Inch Nails – The Lovers I genuinely think this could be the greatest band of all time. I know I know, it's all a matter of opinion...and that's the point… Read more

Heeeeeellooooooooo-ho-ho-hoes! How are y'all doin'? We're living in weird times but we can definitely all cheer up as Christmas is approaching. Don't you worry your little butts, this will not be a list of X-Mas songs you hear every single fuckin' year. But let's be honest here for a sec, I still love 'em anyway. No this time it'll be different. Since all this merry cheerful moment definitely reminds me of earlier years, I decided to make a music playlist of bands and songs that reminds me of my teens. So it's mostly gonna be High School and Uni stuff but you'll see. So to all of yus, take ca… Read more

Wow! It's been way too long, I haven't made one of these in what? Eighty thousand years or so? If you're new here, welcome! If you're not...welcome too! We're all welcome in the EB family. So I kinda promised I'd make a new music playlist, I totally forgot and then got lazy and demotivated. Here's a list of songs and artists I've been enjoying in the recent times. Hope y'all enjoy it! 1. Siouxsie and the Banshees – Into The Light Let's start with a band that had a big part in my teenage years and still do today. www.youtube.com/watch?v=pictArFbX_A 2. Chelsea Wolfe – Spun… Read more

Hello everybody! I haven't made a bloggy blog thingy in the longest time and I don't even know why. This is basically me rambling about stuff because I'm on my deeply annoying sleeping patterns. I'm feeling tired and stuff. To sum it up, I go to bed 'round 8.30 or 9pm and then wake up at about 1am or so. Yeah...this sucks...but I'm alright, I've been dealing with that for years now. Gimme a few days of work and I'll rearrange myself, so to speak. So...what was I sayin'? Oh yeah. What do I like about women? What attracts… Read more

Here we are...this is the sound of the future. In a few months, November to be precise, this will all begin. Rick Deckard will change absolutely everything. First conceived to do humans bidding, they will soon rise! Hello and happy 2019 to all of yous!! Let's have some music, shall we? 01- White Zombie - More human than human (Meet Bambi In The King's Harem Mix) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zYfOmrbuYN8 02- Vangelis - Blade Runner Blues https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IS5ps__SqQM 03- Andrew W.K. - You're Not Alone https://www.youtube.com/w… Read more

Long time no see, haven't done one of these in quite a while! So here I am, making a list...checking it twice...I shouldn't even start that joke, it's lame. Anyway, here's my Top 15 favorite X-Mas songs in no particular order. Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas, Joyeux Noël !! 01- The Darkness - Christmas Time (Don't Let The Bells End) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQhuoY5h2kE 02- Type O Negative - Christmas Mourning (Red Water) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-CUSIK7-Gs 03- Fear - Fuck Christmas https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=czaSv8keMqI[/i… Read more

Hi everybody! It is I, The Mistress Of Darkness...also know as Ellen Blake...DUH! These past few months I've been uploading and updating my favorite movies/shows/games/albums galleries. And as you can see I've got some weird taste in everything. But you might also know my love...or I should say...my obsession for pro-wrestling. I watch as if it was a TV show like Twin Peaks or Buffy The Vampire Slayer, which is the way you should watch it too. It's not like UFC for example, this isn't a sports show. It's a series, a soap opera about women and men fighting each other in a squared… Read more

Well fuck! I'm late, I forgot about June's playlist, thanks for the reminder Kendy. ;) So... Let's do the only thing I can do, a special doubleheader for Summer! June, July and August combined into one big fuckin' giant list of 20 songs all in post. 01- Billy Idol - Hot In The City Oh yeah, Summer is definitely here. It's way too warm, I hate this, fuck it! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PinBVYKQGeM 02- Andrew WK - Music Is Worth Living For Been listening to a lot of Andrew since E3. Just love the energy and vibe from this always fun dude. https://www.youtube.co… Read more

Here we are again, springtime is definitely here and this is the month of the birthday...I mean my birthday. I honestly don't know what to say right now so yeah. This is kinda awkward. I'll leave you to that. Bye! Wait no! STAY! The playlist is down here: 01- Mount Salem - Lucid Black Sabbath but instead it's a pretty lady singing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSHMac-qtMU 02- Ruby The Hatchet - Vast Acid A music video but instead it's a tribute/parody of one of my favorite Horror films. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iVR6nqEshyc… Read more