Learning about gay sex
This is about me and my experiences and where I'm at.
I never questioned that I was straight, I always liked girls and still do. Even my 1st gay experience was unexpected and unplanned. I went to an arcade/bookstore not even knowing that it was a gay hangout for mostly oral sex. I found out in an embarrassing way. I was in a booth and on one side I saw a big hole and the other side was a small hole. I assumed they were both for peeping and didn't want anyone spying on my so I covered them both with the toilet paper provided in the booth - I knew what that was for, at least. I saw that they were being pushed on from the other side and I heard whispering too, to remove it, but I didn't. For some reason I went back weeks or months later, I don't remember for sure, but it was at a time when internet porn was still coming through on dial up, so this was preferable. By the way, I always skipped over the gay or shemale porn on the channels.
Then, I didn't cover up the holes, finally figuring out what they were for. I wasn't willing to entertain a cock into my booth, but after figuring out the finger sign at the hole, I took a chance... I put my cock through and had the best blow job of my life. So, I made plans to go back more often, not too often, but enough to get myself worked up about it. Finally, I let someone put their cock through and opened my mouth. I was surprised by the taste and feel at first and mostly did it as an obligation - if they did it for me, I should do it for them.
Many years went by and I lived in places that didn't have any gloryholes that I knew of. I lived in another city that I discovered had a bathhouse, something I hadn't tried yet, but heard about. I found it and drove by a couple of times. Then I got up the nerve to go in the front door. A couple of middle eastern looking guys were going in and paying and that gave me enough time to chicken out. Then, soon after I moved back to my home town.
I finally went to my first bathhouse late one night. I think my first time I was fucked. Taken to the steam room I was told to lie on my front, the guy got on top of me and I really did not enjoy it. I thought what it must be like for a woman to have a guy put so much weight on her that it was uncomfortable. But, I went back and tried again - I found a guy that understood that I had almost no experience and took his time with me, with me standing against a wall in his room. It was not bad, so I went again and had mixed experiences, some excellent, some disappointing. The best was when I took a room for myself and waited lying down with my ass on display. A guy came in with the longest cock you could imagine and let him take me from behind. Man, did that feel good. Another time, a very nice guy came in with a decent size cock and he knew what he was doing. He said I came more while being fucked than he had ever seen. Recently I noticed that I was hard while sucking another guy in the open at the bathhouse.
The most daring experience I have had was a 3some with a transsexual and her girlfriend. First, the woman fucked me with a dildo, then the transsexual fucked me from behind with a very large cock while I ate her girlfriends pussy. I often think of that when jerking off.
So, where does that leave me. I have had girlfriends and enjoyed making love with them. I love a good pussy as much as I love a good cock. I masturbate more to gay porn than to straight, though a good 2nd is lesbian porn. Sometimes I think I may now be gay, and I do love the videos of women telling me I'm gay, for some reason, but I am still turned on by women and want to be with one and would love to get married someday (currently single). So, that leaves me bi. I don't want a relationship with a guy and don't like kissing men, but I'm happy to suck their cock, given the chance.
A few things I don't like or appreciate - my cock is very sensitive, so being rubbed against beard stubble is a terrible feeling, as well as teeth. It's amazing how many people, men and woman, don't understand how painful teeth can be. I've worried when I've sucked a large dick and I don't have a large mouth, how it feels if it is against my back teeth when I'm trying to take all of it.
Also, with the vids, I don't love the humiliation aspect of the 'you're gay' clips. I know some people like this, but I don't see why it's necessary to belittle someone because they want to suck cock or be fucked. However, if the vid has all the other elements, I tolerate it, but the best ones have more scenes of gay sex and less of women sucking cocks, etc. If you're being told you're gay, why would I want to see mostly scenes of women? There are a few really good ones that build up from hetero sex to finally gay anal and more.
Thanks for reading and letting me share my experience. What do you think?
I never questioned that I was straight, I always liked girls and still do. Even my 1st gay experience was unexpected and unplanned. I went to an arcade/bookstore not even knowing that it was a gay hangout for mostly oral sex. I found out in an embarrassing way. I was in a booth and on one side I saw a big hole and the other side was a small hole. I assumed they were both for peeping and didn't want anyone spying on my so I covered them both with the toilet paper provided in the booth - I knew what that was for, at least. I saw that they were being pushed on from the other side and I heard whispering too, to remove it, but I didn't. For some reason I went back weeks or months later, I don't remember for sure, but it was at a time when internet porn was still coming through on dial up, so this was preferable. By the way, I always skipped over the gay or shemale porn on the channels.
Then, I didn't cover up the holes, finally figuring out what they were for. I wasn't willing to entertain a cock into my booth, but after figuring out the finger sign at the hole, I took a chance... I put my cock through and had the best blow job of my life. So, I made plans to go back more often, not too often, but enough to get myself worked up about it. Finally, I let someone put their cock through and opened my mouth. I was surprised by the taste and feel at first and mostly did it as an obligation - if they did it for me, I should do it for them.
Many years went by and I lived in places that didn't have any gloryholes that I knew of. I lived in another city that I discovered had a bathhouse, something I hadn't tried yet, but heard about. I found it and drove by a couple of times. Then I got up the nerve to go in the front door. A couple of middle eastern looking guys were going in and paying and that gave me enough time to chicken out. Then, soon after I moved back to my home town.
I finally went to my first bathhouse late one night. I think my first time I was fucked. Taken to the steam room I was told to lie on my front, the guy got on top of me and I really did not enjoy it. I thought what it must be like for a woman to have a guy put so much weight on her that it was uncomfortable. But, I went back and tried again - I found a guy that understood that I had almost no experience and took his time with me, with me standing against a wall in his room. It was not bad, so I went again and had mixed experiences, some excellent, some disappointing. The best was when I took a room for myself and waited lying down with my ass on display. A guy came in with the longest cock you could imagine and let him take me from behind. Man, did that feel good. Another time, a very nice guy came in with a decent size cock and he knew what he was doing. He said I came more while being fucked than he had ever seen. Recently I noticed that I was hard while sucking another guy in the open at the bathhouse.
The most daring experience I have had was a 3some with a transsexual and her girlfriend. First, the woman fucked me with a dildo, then the transsexual fucked me from behind with a very large cock while I ate her girlfriends pussy. I often think of that when jerking off.
So, where does that leave me. I have had girlfriends and enjoyed making love with them. I love a good pussy as much as I love a good cock. I masturbate more to gay porn than to straight, though a good 2nd is lesbian porn. Sometimes I think I may now be gay, and I do love the videos of women telling me I'm gay, for some reason, but I am still turned on by women and want to be with one and would love to get married someday (currently single). So, that leaves me bi. I don't want a relationship with a guy and don't like kissing men, but I'm happy to suck their cock, given the chance.
A few things I don't like or appreciate - my cock is very sensitive, so being rubbed against beard stubble is a terrible feeling, as well as teeth. It's amazing how many people, men and woman, don't understand how painful teeth can be. I've worried when I've sucked a large dick and I don't have a large mouth, how it feels if it is against my back teeth when I'm trying to take all of it.
Also, with the vids, I don't love the humiliation aspect of the 'you're gay' clips. I know some people like this, but I don't see why it's necessary to belittle someone because they want to suck cock or be fucked. However, if the vid has all the other elements, I tolerate it, but the best ones have more scenes of gay sex and less of women sucking cocks, etc. If you're being told you're gay, why would I want to see mostly scenes of women? There are a few really good ones that build up from hetero sex to finally gay anal and more.
Thanks for reading and letting me share my experience. What do you think?
11 years ago
