Sensual Tit Worship
When I was younger, I did not like my breasts at all. Coming of age in the digital era does a number on a girls’ self-esteem especially when she is Asian-Canadian and there aren’t many Hollywood stars that represent my kind. Pornography; however, for as long as I can recall (and for as long as the internet has been accessible and at the fingertips of consumers everywhere) has always had a place for “Asians” – women of course. The stereotype about less than phallically endowed Asian men in my experience. I am not going to take the time to comment on whether or not this is true in my experience- but truth be told I can’t anyways. I have never been with an Asian man sexually or otherwise- I was adopted at birth.
When I looked at Asians (always women) in pornography when I was younger and coming into my adult sexuality the thing that struck me most about them were their breasts. While a natural look may have been in vogue in some circles, Hentai and seemingly all other Asian featuring porn shows women with orb type breasts affixed (generally) to their petite figure. The fetishization of Asian women is real – trust me – and it has much more than aesthetics as the primary component. My experience in the online dating world confirms what I already knew to be true from my time researching pornography- that Asian women are not only sought after because of their features (very specific), but also their stereotyped overall inexperience (high pitched voice, hairless), and most important for some- their submissiveness. There are entire groups of heterosexual men who are interested in Asian women, preferably ones that do not speak English well and with which a power dynamic exists in terms of economic privilege and citizenship, AND perceived submissiveness. Many of these men have unfortunately found their way into my DM’s over the years, where it became apparent to them that I was not the “china doll” they were looking for in terms of meek personality and dependence on their Canadian citizenship (read whiteness) and most Canadian women- racialized as white or any other race- would have no interest in dating them. I believe the term used in popular culture today is INCEL- involuntarily celibate.
But I digress- as I usually do- when comfortably seated with a glass of rose and a nice ending dose of my ADHD medication (I am just as guilty as the next person of strategically dosing). I have recently come to like my own tits and I must say- I am extremely aroused by pornography that has prolonged and sensual nipple and breast play overall. There is something so arousing about the perfect mound of enhanced breasts with little nipples at their center- either bouncing as a woman rides cowgirl, with each thrust as she is pounded or sensually penetrated in missionary, or as her nipples are sucked and breasts fondled by her ravenous man. I am not aroused in the sense that I would like to make love to a woman anytime soon- but rather I want to be her. My breasts implants were expensive- I don’t mean to brag- but when I invest in myself I always fod for the very best. Either that, or nothing.
The most intense fantasy that comes to mind right now, is that of a strong man – very masculine in character and powerful- but somewhat sensitive. His desire for his Asian Queen is too much however, and at the thought of me in lingerie before him he is weak and practically whimpers with desire. I await him at the location of his desire, in lingerie of his choosing. Something soft, lacy and a pink that compliments my slightly olive skin and fits like it was made for me – it practically was. I am seated before him, almost on a thrown of sorts but a lounge, outdoor day bed, or perhaps even the desk in his office. He comes to me and traces his hand hungrily cups my pussy, feeling the heat and the moisture rising within in. I am ready for him, practically ovulating and in heat with desire, but he needs to feed. Not on actual milk, but his approach to my breasts baresly encased in the lace and satin pushup bra I am wearing is that of a man who is dying of thirst and has just come to the oasis. The pulls the bra down, not even bothering to unclasp it in his lust, and his mouth finds my left nipple and begins to tongue it back and forth in flickers of pleasure which shoot electric shocks to my clitoris. He suckles and nibbles each breast tenderly while stimulating my clitoris until I feel the heat start to rise between my legs. The formerly impenetrable tight dam that is the entrance to my slit breaks as his fingers find the entrance and part my lips. My wetness flows like silky nectar onto his hand and glistens my inner thighs as he works my tight hole and clit with one hand and simultaneously suckles my nipples- alternating. The heat rises and my moans cannot be maintained. If the windows are open, the neighbours know that I am lost in the appetizer to the main course which will be the fucking of my life! I grip his rock hard cock through his pants with my hand as he brings me over the edge into the most intense of my life. I want to both close and open my legs wide, my inner slut released as my body both begs to be filled by his penis, and also to never let his hand escape. Once the pulsating eruption has passed, he unzips and grins at me as I drop to my knees- gladly. I plan to devour his cock with the same eagerness and pleasure of my own that he has just given me. If there is any gas left in the tank at the end- we might even fuck.
When I looked at Asians (always women) in pornography when I was younger and coming into my adult sexuality the thing that struck me most about them were their breasts. While a natural look may have been in vogue in some circles, Hentai and seemingly all other Asian featuring porn shows women with orb type breasts affixed (generally) to their petite figure. The fetishization of Asian women is real – trust me – and it has much more than aesthetics as the primary component. My experience in the online dating world confirms what I already knew to be true from my time researching pornography- that Asian women are not only sought after because of their features (very specific), but also their stereotyped overall inexperience (high pitched voice, hairless), and most important for some- their submissiveness. There are entire groups of heterosexual men who are interested in Asian women, preferably ones that do not speak English well and with which a power dynamic exists in terms of economic privilege and citizenship, AND perceived submissiveness. Many of these men have unfortunately found their way into my DM’s over the years, where it became apparent to them that I was not the “china doll” they were looking for in terms of meek personality and dependence on their Canadian citizenship (read whiteness) and most Canadian women- racialized as white or any other race- would have no interest in dating them. I believe the term used in popular culture today is INCEL- involuntarily celibate.
But I digress- as I usually do- when comfortably seated with a glass of rose and a nice ending dose of my ADHD medication (I am just as guilty as the next person of strategically dosing). I have recently come to like my own tits and I must say- I am extremely aroused by pornography that has prolonged and sensual nipple and breast play overall. There is something so arousing about the perfect mound of enhanced breasts with little nipples at their center- either bouncing as a woman rides cowgirl, with each thrust as she is pounded or sensually penetrated in missionary, or as her nipples are sucked and breasts fondled by her ravenous man. I am not aroused in the sense that I would like to make love to a woman anytime soon- but rather I want to be her. My breasts implants were expensive- I don’t mean to brag- but when I invest in myself I always fod for the very best. Either that, or nothing.
The most intense fantasy that comes to mind right now, is that of a strong man – very masculine in character and powerful- but somewhat sensitive. His desire for his Asian Queen is too much however, and at the thought of me in lingerie before him he is weak and practically whimpers with desire. I await him at the location of his desire, in lingerie of his choosing. Something soft, lacy and a pink that compliments my slightly olive skin and fits like it was made for me – it practically was. I am seated before him, almost on a thrown of sorts but a lounge, outdoor day bed, or perhaps even the desk in his office. He comes to me and traces his hand hungrily cups my pussy, feeling the heat and the moisture rising within in. I am ready for him, practically ovulating and in heat with desire, but he needs to feed. Not on actual milk, but his approach to my breasts baresly encased in the lace and satin pushup bra I am wearing is that of a man who is dying of thirst and has just come to the oasis. The pulls the bra down, not even bothering to unclasp it in his lust, and his mouth finds my left nipple and begins to tongue it back and forth in flickers of pleasure which shoot electric shocks to my clitoris. He suckles and nibbles each breast tenderly while stimulating my clitoris until I feel the heat start to rise between my legs. The formerly impenetrable tight dam that is the entrance to my slit breaks as his fingers find the entrance and part my lips. My wetness flows like silky nectar onto his hand and glistens my inner thighs as he works my tight hole and clit with one hand and simultaneously suckles my nipples- alternating. The heat rises and my moans cannot be maintained. If the windows are open, the neighbours know that I am lost in the appetizer to the main course which will be the fucking of my life! I grip his rock hard cock through his pants with my hand as he brings me over the edge into the most intense of my life. I want to both close and open my legs wide, my inner slut released as my body both begs to be filled by his penis, and also to never let his hand escape. Once the pulsating eruption has passed, he unzips and grins at me as I drop to my knees- gladly. I plan to devour his cock with the same eagerness and pleasure of my own that he has just given me. If there is any gas left in the tank at the end- we might even fuck.
1 year ago
