My first ever video upload experience

15 days ago I took a dare, filmed myself masturbating in slow motion and posted it on xhamster.

This is something I would never had considered before, I mean I've only had sex with one person, I've never had my dick out in public or even use urinals when I needed a piss! But, I thought what do I have to lose, I've getting old, I'll just do it, and I have to say I've enjoyed the experience far more than I thought.

Initially I felt dirty and when I saw the first time it was viewed, even a little sick, but I didn't delete it. And with over 3k views on my video and overwhelmingly positive responses, its boosted my low self esteem loads, and even though I still think my dick is too small, I'm far less ashamed of it for the first time in my life.

What also is very odd for me is I see other creators video, lean, young fit guys with big dicks with fewer views than my video, and some amazing videos which only have a thousand more views after 2 years, I'm wondering how it works, and why do I have so many views!?!

I keep thinking if anyone knew this was me I would die, but after 15 days and 5k views in total, I'm thinking maybe not, and I might even show the video to my friend that challenged me in the first place, I wonder if he'd like it or run for the hills.

I've now challenged him to do the same, will he take me up, only time will tell, will he show me his videos? I'd recommend posting to everyone, there is something freeing about it, I'm now trying to get my wife to make her own page and try it.

Thanks for reading and watching.