Premature ejaculation during sex with men

Got a flashback watching this. It happens sometimes to me when I'm too overexcited - I'm cumming right after penetration, like full discharge, then his penis inside feels to me pretty uncomfortable, I just have to lie on my back with eyes closed and wait obediently until he's done using me. At that point I think it's all over, it was the last time, I definitely won't be looking for a date anymore.

Then at home when I recall that moments, I sort of look at me from the outside, and because I really love a-bit-abusive-keep-fucking-after-cum situations in porn (or I love this in porn, because it happens to me?), it turns me on again. I tell myself that nothing bad actually happened and I wanted it myself, so why not no to meet again? Especially if everything goes as I planned, it would be great, during sex I will just leak endlessly and by the end I'll make a puddle on my belly :D

Does this happens to you? Please tell me what do you feel about that.